its christmas today, whatever im looking forward to today, doesnt really matter to me anymore, i got wat i wanted, needed, some is more than enough. But everything just shattered away, i see things that i shouldnt be seeing. on his computer, i know that i shouldnt be so insecure. but its how i feel. i feel like i shouldnt be pending xmas being happy, im not happy. and i cant even talk to anyone about it. i feel like i dont satisfy him, being with him was amazing. sparkles everywhere, fireworks, doves and nice breeze. But at one of the time we've been together, i felt like i didnt have a boyfriend at all, around that time, trust him with all my heart, i never doubted him one bit, its just wat i saw yesterday, cut me into pieces and when i actually have time to think, it just rush through my head like jets, i am insecure now, cos wat i saw yesterday give me ideas of him being with someone else.. andthe only question in my head was, why wasnt i enough.
hope yu all have merry xmas, mine is just a relationship issue, yet i cant even confront him.
Sealed with a Kiss xoxo
