My inside is very much torn apart, i will leave this place, leave yu alone. I know that i might not have been a great one.. Cos since watever yu did to me proved it so .. Yu are the only on who make me feel, Happy, Angry, Frustrated, Depress, Excited, and .. Relieved. My whole entire life i can only rely on one person, and that person will always be yu. I can be independent and will also be fragile, easily broken by yur actions and words.
Your mind connects with mine and will return to me, because watever belongs to me, shall always be mine. I had given yu everything, my heart, soul and mind. I never look at anyone else the same way i look at yu. Living with yu in my life had been the best days of my life, and it will be remembered, even though it was broken by yur actions and yur words.
The horror was to shout and hear yu throwing stuff at my face, doubting me, yelling, accusing me, like i was nobody adn that everything happened because of my fault. I tried to tell yu i love yu, but instead yu ended yur heart and love surveral times on stupid reasons. i didnt know if it was love, or if it was just a chase. Though yu came back, but it was still broken by yur actions and words.
I hear yu calling me, when i tried hardest to get to yu. My babysteps arent very big. not very fast, but with yu by myside for so long i get to learn my way around. I learnt to open my eyes, to see things deeply and from a different persective. Yu hold my hand and tell me things, yu tell me some facts, interesting news and also.. lies. It was broken by yur actions ad words.
Yu dont notice much about me, yu can tell that i had grown up while im with yu, but yu were too busy to see and notice who i am. Yu wouldnt even read my blog about yu, how im madly in love with yu, how i care so much and rage about yu, and the only way to keep my mouth shut from crowds is to write it down on here. "Blogspot" i build this up just to write my feelings. All my life.. im only pretending that yu were mine. But it was broken by yur actions and words.
Im not afraid to lose anything, but yu.. Even though yu are the one who take me in yur arms and lead me to my nightmares, and yet yu did it again.. so many times.. it will only scarred me for life. Yu didnt need me in yur life. Yu didnt love me becos we looked at the stars, yu didnt love me for who i am. Yu had others. Yu were chasing others.. Yu didnt think of me. and now, im broken by yur actions and words.. i dont know wat to do btu cry.. cry my eyes out, i dont care wat yu think of me. I will cry and yu knwo it, and something else yu will have to know. I will never come back. Goodbye. I love yu..

